Refreshed

I feel refreshed today and I am so thankful.

My husband and I went on a date night last night, and instead of heading to a movie...we opted to pick up the "sweetness" and head home to turn in early. He also suprised me by taking over a whole night of Caroline duty so I could get some sleep.

It was absolutely wonderful! I actually got 8 hours of sleep!!

Needless to say I woke up feeling refreshed and ready for the day. I never realized how much a little sleep could go a long way. Tonight I am just praying that Caroline sleeps as well as I did last night.

It made me think though... Is all the exhaustion more mental or physical? Maybe a little of both.

My body sure was exhausted but after a got a good night sleep, I still needed to be replensished mentally. So thus enters an incredible morning with my Lord and Savior.
He truly is the water that refreshes my soul, the food the replenishes me when I am hungry and the breath that I need to breathe.
As the song goes "I am desperate for You...and I am Lost without You."

I think with a little sleep and a whole lot of grace from God...I can do this mom thing. He obviously believed that I could do it or He wouldn't have entrusted me with Caroline in the first place.
I still hope she sleeps through the night soon though :0

For now...
Lindsey

Is Anyone Out There...That Doesn't Lie?

Is anyone out there!!....

I feel alone yet I know (or believe) that there has to be others out there who are like me.
Desperately in love with their child... yet desperately exhausted.

Caroline Leigh Campbell is 4 months and 2 weeks old. She is precious! I can not even begin to describe the absolute love I feel for her. I have the incredible privledge of being her mommy and spending my days caring for her and our household. I am honored that God chose me to carry this torch of motherhood, and I do not take it for granted in the least.

But... I am tired. I am slap worn out. And for the moment it seems, there is no end in site.

Caroline and I are going through growing pains. She is growing and I am in pain :)

Here are a few things that cause this pain:

1) She does not sleep through the night yet.
2) She has acid reflux which constantly blesses me with smelling like spit up.
3) She is teething really early. We discovered her first two teeth Christmas morning :) ( Sing with me... "All I want for Christmas is my two front teeth")
4) I am breastfeeding...which makes a foodie like me long for Mexican food, and spicy buffalo wings.
5) I have no clue what do for her when she has an abnormally fussy day. I don't do tears well.
6) Everyone that I meet who is also a first time mom...somehow has the easiest, sleepiest, most perfect baby in the world.
7) I have a husband who is struggling to find how he can "help".

Is there anyone out there who is like me? Anyone out there who is so in love with their baby but can admit to how hard this is?

I long for the days with a first time mom, who can just relate. But for now... Caroline is sleeping in her crib, and I will write. Maybe for my own sanity.

Caroline's Mom~ Lindsey